- It's too hard to write about
- The last time I put personal details in my anonymous blog, someone (a hater) who knew my real identity turned it against me, making private details public across Facebook and completely humiliating me
Diet: As mentioned, my relationship doesn't allow for me to have a super-picky diet. We live together, so we cook together, eat together, go out together. I cannot change eveything on my own, but I can cut back, do my part, which is what I intend to do. This includes: Limiting portions
- If I'm still hungry after eating, I'm doing it right.
- If I'm satisfied, I've probably eaten too much
- If I'm full, I've overeaten. Congratulation fatty, now go upstairs and purge.
- Skip meals whenever possible.
- The more frequently I eat, the hungrier I get. Weird, I know.
- PLEASE NOTE: DON'T bother giving me that bullshit that skipping meals makes your body store fat. If I was trying to lose weight the "healthy way" that would be true. But in my ten years of disordered eating experience, it all comes down to calories in, calories out. When you only consume 200 cal/day, your body is going to use those 200 cals for fuel, not storage. Any scientist or medical professional will agree, and the roughly 10% of women in the U.S. who have been clinically diagnosed with an eating disorder can prove it. End of story, mkay?
- This is a tricky one, as social drinking and my lifestyle go hand in hand. Not to mention that I work in a profession that isn't exactly known for being sobriety-friendly. But nonetheless, this is DEFINATELY the reason I have gained the most weight. I'll have a diet mixer and squeeze of lemon please, thankyouverymuch.
- Meat
- Dairy
- Carbs
- Sugar
- Oil
Excercise:
Strength: (lower impact, focus on toning)
- Yoga
- Pilates
- Abs
- Light weights
Aerobic: (harder when I'm restricting heavily)
- Running
- Biking
- Drink at least 90 oz. a day
- This doesn't count tea, coffee, or other beverages. 90 oz of clean, filtered water
- Water flushes out impurities from the body, makes it easier for the liver to process fat from storage, and keeps you feeling full
- MINIMUM 8 hours a night
- When you're sleeping, you're not eating (duh)
- Surprising, you burn a good amount of calories sleeping. Sounds weird, but true
Food Journal
- Fitday.com (http://www.fitday.com/fitness/Login.html) is a great free online resource to track food, calories, excercise, weight goals and progress.
- I've noticed when I use it consistenly, I almost always loose weight. Trick is - consistency.
Keep Busy
Some days I'll be so swamped that 14 hours will go by and I'll realize, "Hey, I haven't eaten a single thing today." Of course, my next thought is: "...cool..." but the point here is staying busy is the best way to keep my mind off food. Clean house, wash my car, garden, get caught up at work, read, paint my nails, go see a movie, whatever...just don't eat
And most importantly:
Hungry = Good
Does it suck being hungry? Damn right.
I get dizzy doing such simple taks as STANDING UP. I'm shivering, freezing cold, even when it's 85 degrees out. My body aches all over for lack of energy. My stomach growls so loud everyone in the meeting hears it.
...but it's worth it. The end result is worth it. Nothing good is ever easy. And I can do it.
5 comments:
I really like your frankness, openness and honesty. I hope you will be able to reach your goals!
Children die in Africa because they have no food. They would kill to be able to have the resources that we have. Yet here you are, another middle class girl with "issues" who thinks that her body is the most important thing in the world. Get some fucking help you pathetic cow,
Rebeckah are you fucking kidding me?? She has a disorder you dumb twat, telling her that isn't doing anything but making yourself feel better and that is pathetic.
I'd be careful, love, about what you do to your body. I don't agree with skipping meals, and the reason as to why you may gain more while eating frequently could be due to your eating disorder--you're body is use to starving for food, so it stores what it can. To help make your body feel full, eat more protein rich foods, like nuts and chicken breast, to make yourself feel full. It will also help your body recover quicker from your workouts, although you may gain muscle in the process (which weights more than fat).
That being said, I do not condone what you are doing. Any health professional that would look at your intentions would quickly send you off to receive help. I just hope you realise that looking/being skinny (like the models you so often fawn over) should not be the top priority in your life.
do not have an eating disorder. Disordered eating - maybe.
I lost a significant amount of weight through a strict diet of calorie restriction with lean protein, low carb, no alcohol, and weight training.
For the first time in my 30 years of life I have a good control over my mind AND body. This isn't about vanity..."being skinny (like the models [I] so often fawn over", it's about having self confidence and power from the INSIDE out. Knowing that you set a goal for yourself and accomplished it.
My methodology may not be what you think is acceptable, but I know my body better than anyone else. I feel so good every morning I wake up. I look at myself in the mirror and love what I see for the first time in...EVER. Does that sound like a person with an eating disorder???? No. How I got here and how I maintain is none of you business.
I apologize for nothing.
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